...naturally.
I woke up yesterday morning with a dull and depressing
conviction that I was no longer useful to a certain person, so I should get out
of her life.
What’s that all about? Why stay close to a person to whom
you feel connected only as long as you believe you’re serving some need or
purpose of theirs? Shouldn’t connection be a two-way process? Is this what
comes of being the opposite of a predator? Is it some sort of self-sacrificial
neurosis perhaps? Blowed if I know.
I never did get the hang of relating to other human beings.
I wonder how much longer I’m going to carry on trying.
Normal service will be resumed as soon as possible.
2 comments:
I have experienced this too many times in my life. Even right now, I feel a bit empty without someone's presence. He whom I should not think of at all.
I feel a bit lost.
I wonder whether it's paying off karma, Mei-shan. Maybe we were predatory types in a previous life.
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