Monday, 26 September 2011

Alone Again...


I woke up yesterday morning with a dull and depressing conviction that I was no longer useful to a certain person, so I should get out of her life.

What’s that all about? Why stay close to a person to whom you feel connected only as long as you believe you’re serving some need or purpose of theirs? Shouldn’t connection be a two-way process? Is this what comes of being the opposite of a predator? Is it some sort of self-sacrificial neurosis perhaps? Blowed if I know.

I never did get the hang of relating to other human beings. I wonder how much longer I’m going to carry on trying.

Normal service will be resumed as soon as possible.


Mei-shan Lin said...

I have experienced this too many times in my life. Even right now, I feel a bit empty without someone's presence. He whom I should not think of at all.

I feel a bit lost.

JJ Beazley said...

I wonder whether it's paying off karma, Mei-shan. Maybe we were predatory types in a previous life.