We all have situations where we prevaricate over whether to
do or not to do something. Usually it’s just the arguments and counter
arguments going back and forth, or it’s alternate sides of our nature battling
for supremacy.
I have something different occasionally – an apparently external
influence directing me with firm, powerful, nagging instructions that I must or must not do a certain thing. It’s so strong that I always
eventually give into it, and it’s always right. I’ve learned to tell the
difference now between that and the usual, psychological reasons for vacillating.
This thing is tough and insistent, and it makes me do the right thing.
It happened again last night. I was about to send an e-mail
to somebody, a message into which I’d put a lot of time and thought. The
pointer hovered over the ‘send’ button for ages, while this ‘presence,’ or
whatever it is, held me back and told me over and over again ‘do not click the
button.’ I didn’t; I went into my inbox instead, and found there an e-mail from
the intended recipient. It made my message not only inappropriate, but very
badly timed.
This is no ‘voices in my head’ stuff. This is something
deeper, subtler and unceasingly insistent. What it directs me to do or desist
from doing often flies in the face of all reason. And yet it’s right. So what
is it? Instinct? Some form of telepathy? I’ve no idea.
2 comments:
Your Higher Self, perhaps? Some may even suggest your spirit guide although i'm not too sure i "believe" in those...
I'm inclined towards the higher self, too. Somebody once told me my 'spirit guide' is a princess from the South Seas. For the full (true) story, you'd have to read The Open Circle at the other blog.
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