Looking back, I realise that I’ve lived life with a
succession of single focuses (focii? Greek or Latin? Don’t know. Should I care?
Anyway...)
Yes, one single focus after another – sometimes a job or
hobby, sometimes a person, sometimes the concentrated search for an ideal. At
the moment I have no focus and it’s bothering me. I’m living in a void, which I
don’t like. And here’s the problem:
I’ve always found that these things come to me, rather than
me going out and finding them. Chasing things has never worked, I have to lie
in wait and grab them as they come past. (Which makes me sound like a frog with
a long tongue. It isn’t like that, honestly; I have no predatory instinct.)
At the moment, the universe is doing her usual trick:
staying silent but pointing enigmatically at certain signs. And the current
signs are:
Drum roll
New York and
twenty four.
What am I supposed to make of that? I don’t know. Maybe I
never will; the universe is like that sometimes. Then again...
2 comments:
How do you know that anything will ever come?
I don't, Jen. It just always has so far.
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