Dealing With Weeks.

The builders turned up as promised this morning. They're replacing the roof over the kitchens of our two houses, and there were three vehicles filling most of the space at the bottom of my garden. Then another contractor turned up to check my my CO and smoke detectors. That made four vehicles. 

I have a historic reason for being very touchy about having vehicles at the bottom of my garden, and having been woken up early, the presence of four of them didn't exactly improve my mood. The builder said it should take a week and a half or maybe two weeks to complete the roofing job, but the forecast for the next week is for the weather to turn colder, wetter, and windier, so maybe my dolour will be extended further. 

The man who came to check the detectors kept referring to 'your CO2 detectors.' I had to correct him, didn't I.

'It's just CO.'

'What do you mean?'

'It's a CO detector, not CO2. CO2 is carbon dioxide. The air is full of the stuff. The bad gas is carbon monoxide -- CO.'

'Oh. Well it says CO2 on the box.'

I'll bet it doesn't. But by then I'd realised that I was being one of those jerks we all hate, so I changed the subject.

 

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It struck me this morning that the local school has now started its half term holiday week. It gave me a minor shock actually, because I would have sworn they went back after the long summer break only last week. How time does fly when you're ancient as a dodo but not yet quite extinct.

Trump's Brothers Up North.

I was just reading the BBC article about the upcoming independence referendum in Alberta, Canada. It prompted me to say this:

The oil and gas reserves in Alberta belong to Albertans, but only legally. Ethically, oil and gas reserves are planetary resources and don't actually 'belong' to anybody. So when I hear Albertans saying, effectively: 'These reserves belong to us. Never mind the degradation of the environment and the deleterious effect it could have on our children and grandchildren, we want to be richer,' I hear the selfish, money-dominated attitude of a Donald Trump. And that disappoints me.

I also wonder whether Trump would take a personal interest in Alberta seceding from Canada. He might seek to influence the vote should it get that far. And who knows, he might even get that 51st state he's been slavering over since his Greenland failure.

This Band of Brothers.

We've recently been treated to the odd phenomenon of Trump bowing the knee to Putin, and only a week or so earlier he was sucking up to Xi, and now a curious suspicion has entered my head:

 

Given the combined military power of China, Russia, and the USA, could it be that the Big Three are planning to carve up the world between them -- Xi gets South and East Asia, Putin gets Eastern Europe and West Asia, Trump gets Western Europe and South America? Just think: Trump could have all the European historic buildings bulldozed to make way for parking lots, and the Oxbridge universities could become luxury hotels for rich golfers and paedophiles. Such fun.

I think I'm being fanciful, but it would solve Trump's 2028 problem. And maybe there's a shadow puppet master pulling all three strings, the existence of which player has long been forecast by those into dystopian conspiracy theories. Somebody should write a book, don't you think? Only not me because I couldn't be bothered.

Down and Whingey.

I'm having disturbed nights at the moment -- quiet but suspicious noises, unscheduled awakenings, and a feeling that the dark, cold bedroom is now alien territory. The bedroom is no longer the welcoming space that it used to be. 

 

Having risen much earlier than usual this morning, I spent the afternoon doing some quite strenuous gardening work which left me feeling very tired. I still feel very tired, which isn't ideal when the bedroom is no longer the welcoming space that it used to be.

Tomorrow the pestering begins from two separate sources. The first is likely to persist for two weeks, the other I don't know yet.

The latest casualties of my technology breakdowns saga are my grass trimmer and my landline phone. Not many things in my orbit work properly these days, and I do so like things to work properly. When you live out in the countryside and don't have the use of a car, replacing things is rather more difficult than it is if you're mobile. And to add insult to injury, the UK's main retailer of general household goods and equipment -- Argos -- won't allow my computer to access their website to order online. I don't know why and they can't tell me. And I wouldn't have anything to do with Amazon even if everything packed up altogether. Ethical trading is important to me and I doubt Amazon could even spell the word.

I'm giving more thought to discovering the undiscovered country when the time comes for me to turn permanently cold and increasingly smelly (I still retain some semblance of vanity, you see) and become even more useless than I am now. I think I might cope as long as there are plenty of happy dogs, no technology, no East Asian ghosts with long black hair and empty eye sockets, and the Japanese girls all speak English and look like Yui Hasegawa with a pony tail.

So now I'm going to see whether I can stay awake while I read a few pages of Mrs Woolf's writing.

(Might I break the mold and mention that I pleased a YouTuber with a complimentary comment last night? Apparently, I made her day.)

The One Good Result.

I take very little interest in male elite sport these days. It's too dominated by big money, big egos, and a win-at-all costs attitude. It lacks something of the honourable rivalry that it used to have.

 

Not so the women's versions of football and rugby union. They haven't quite got there yet, and so I still have something to watch. And watch I did last night when the England rugby team played Canada in Toronto. Kick off time was 12 midnight British Summer Time, so it suited me to watch the game and go to bed immediately afterwards.

At the start of the match England had gone forty one games unbeaten, with forty wins and one draw. Understandably, they were (and remain) the top ranked team in the world. But last night they lost to the Canadians who scored a try in the last three minutes. I went to bed in a surprisingly grouchy mood and the result was the first thing I thought of when I woke up this morning.

So what's the one good result? Well, it means that when we watch an England team play a rugby match now, we can do so with a sense of jeopardy. And that seems to me to be a good thing.

A Little Folk Song Mystery.

For two days now I've had the aeons-old Devonshire folk song Widecombe Fair going through my head on a never-ending loop. It's one of the best known of British folk songs; I'm fairly sure I was first exposed to it in primary school. 

 

Has nobody noticed that it ends with the death of a horse through callous mistreatment? So why is it so popular? Why is it taught to school children? Do people think that working a horse to death is funny or something? And why has it been going round and round in my head for two days?

The Virginia Obsession.

I wish I could get out of this daily need to say something new about Virginia Woolf's writing, but the problem is this:

It took me quite some time to get used to her. Virginia Woolf writes differently than any other of the notable writers I've read, so much so that it's a bit like learning to comprehend a different dialect of your native language. It takes a while for the fog to slowly dissipate, but when the dialect crystalizes into intelligible speech, the effect is captivating. At least to me it is.

It's her mind, you see. It's so vast that it seems almost as if the world simply isn't big enough to accommodate it. The world of bishops and barristers, builders and bus drivers, Bentleys and Bugattis, festering hovels and fine houses, farmers' fields and flash floods (where am I supposed to stop?) is inadequate for a massively perceptive intellect which spots every nuance in the world of an urbane woman and leaves you with the feeling that there's plenty more but the story had to end somewhere. And her endings, when she finally releases the tether, are unbearably perfect. As someone who once thought himself a passable writer, I'm truly envious. I've enjoyed and appreciated the skill of plenty of writers, but I've never envied one before.

I'm even tempted to wonder whether she wasn't human at all, but a member of some superior species spending a mere fifty years of life observing reality at the base level and describing it to those capable of understanding. And just in case I'm giving a false impression here, let me say that she is often dismissive of base reality, but never arrogant. In fact, arrogance seems to be one of the states of mind she most derided.

There might be more to come.

Portrait of the Artist as an Old Man.

I found a photograph of mine on eBay last night. It had been used for a postcard, was second hand, and was priced at £5.99. Underneath it said by Beazley. How on earth did I get to be that valuable?

 

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I met an attractive young lady in the village this morning. As far as I know she's lived here all her life, but the last time I saw her was several years ago and she was but a teenager and therefore of no consequence. She's still of no consequence, and shall I tell you why? It's like this:

Imagine you're hungry but there's no food anywhere except a tray of doughy bread waiting to be baked. Only there's no fuel to start a fire to heat the oven to bake the bread. That's what it's like.

 

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I have an invader in the house and it's troubling me a lot because a hatred of anything or anyone invading my private space is one of my most potent neuroses. I was first made aware of it when I was about eight and it's never eased.

The Magic of the Yelp.

I was just listening to a Mediaeval Babes track on YouTube, and at the end of every verse the company of young women did a yelp in concert.

What is it about the yelp that is so invigorating? I suspect it's a sensual thing, but maybe I shouldn't go further. It's just that men can't do it.

On History and Frustration.

All my life I've had a keen interest in history, mainly English history simply because I happen to be English. And there are several people who stand out in the annals of England and particularly dominate my interest. One of the foremost is Aetheflaed, Lady of the Mercians, and here's the problem.

 

We know her heritage; she was the daughter of Alfred the Great of Wessex. We know she married the King (or possibly overlord) of Mercia, and we know that together they re-conquered a great deal of the land which had been captured by the Danish Great Army. We know that after her husband became incapacitated for some reason and eventually died, Aethelflaed carried on alone and became the great warrior queen of the early Middle Ages. We know that the Danes who still controlled Jorvik -- roughly the modern county of Yorkshire -- submitted to her without a fight. And we know that by the time she died aged 48, two thirds of the land we now call England was back under English control and the base was established for the final conquest and establishment of the England we know today.

But it's no enough. It tells us where she came from and what she did, but it doesn't tell us who she was. I want to see her and look into her eyes. I want to hear her voice and watch her bearing as she walks. I want to know what moved her, what angered her, what comforted her. I want to get a sense of her dedication, her intelligence, her courage, her inner strength. I want to know whether she was ever afraid. I want know how she reacted to, and dealt with, the powerful people in her own circle who objected to her leadership simply because she was a woman. I even want to know where she thought the dead go.

And I can't know any of this because nobody wrote objective biographies of strong women in those days. Such accounts as were written were written entirely by and about prominent men, and concentrated on deeds, not character. That gives me a frustrating gap that I can never fill.