Some years ago I wrote a post comprising a fiction about a
little boy who liked to blow bubbles. He would blow each bubble or bundle of
bubbles, then watch them transfixed as they rose and fell and flew and dipped
depending on the wind. He loved to see the shimmering veins of colour in the
glossy surface, and was especially pleased when one bubble grew much bigger
than the rest and became the star of the show. And when each bubble burst he
would blow some more, and carry on blowing more and more bubbles until the pot
of soapy liquid was empty. And then he would sink to his knees and weep for the
loss of all those bubbles.
Recently it struck me that the story is a metaphor for life.
Because it’s what we do, isn’t it? We go through life blowing bubbles.
First there’s the freedom and the play of childhood. Then
there are the years of education during which we learn how to function
acceptably in our own type of culture. We leave education behind and move into
a career, or a series of dead end jobs depending on circumstances. And often we
lose one bubble of a job and blow another.
We have our flings during the early years, before settling
down with a life partner. And then the children come along. They’re the next
bubble or bundle of bubbles. We care for them and feed them and teach them how
to blow their own bubbles, until they become independent and another bubble has
popped. By then, mid life and retirement have taken a toll on the pot of soapy
water, but there’s still some left. And so we blow the bubbles of freedom,
travel, and relaxation until fading health, strength, and energy bring us to the
bottom of the pot, and all that’s left to do is sink into an armchair or
hospital bed and reflect on the loss of all those bubbles.
It’s why I’ve never been able to believe that this life is
all there is. I give a high level of credence to the concept of reincarnation,
but that’s not enough either. I still fail to see what purpose there is in
jumping on and off some wheel of life, death, and rebirth if all I’m going to
do is blow bubbles. There must surely be more – or else why are we conscious –
but nobody can tell me with an acceptable degree of certainty what it is.
For now, however, I expect I will continue to write posts
about blowing one form of bubble or another. I’m struggling to find any other
reason to be here.